It's fucked up. I wish it was easier. I never wanted to be in this situation. How terrible.

I wish I can tell him this:

I wish we can give it another try. I still hope for something. But I need to know if you have really move on and I am only asking you now for the last time, do you still want to be with me? I have to let go. And if you say no then I will have to accept it and be strong. I will give you space to do what you want.

Ahhh..But I can't. I think I need to just keep it in and toughen up. He is obviously happy that he's free from me. And I just need to get myself busy.

Damn my heart is feeling weird again. I'd never though heartbreaks do give physical pain. I can't breathe deeply sometimes... Scary.