We are still together and so much has happened. You can freely say that I'm very very stupid for still staying despite knowing he has cheated at least ten times since ever. Yep, still in pain, probably even more depressed and stressed. The only thing that has changed is I know what he's doing and he doesn't care. It's either I accept it or I leave. Haha. I deserve it, I guess. For being so fucking stupid. Stupid in love! How come I'm the only one in the relationship that is left here? That's what it feels like everyday! I feel like a wallflower. A fucking wallflower girlfriend.
Reading my previous posts have definitely upset me. Why didn't I do something for myself? I had the chance to let go and make myself happy, to escape from this selfish man who at that time had a relationship with a Thai girl online, and had even met up with her while we were back together again. And guess what, he came back with gonorrhea. AWESOME. And even after that? I still forgave him!
I thought that would make him get better. More faithful, I guess! If he felt bad for that he'll probably do his best to be the best boyfriend ever. That's what he said! But no no no no.... OH MY GOD! I can't write right now. I'm too upset. I'm soooo stupid!
What am I doing now? What am I doing with this guy who isn't respecting me anymore?? He hurts me everyday and he says to me that he doesn't give a fuck if it upsets me. Oh, he's on an online dating website by the way, talking to girls and ladyboys, pretending he's single and flirting with them. And I have to choose to live with it or fuck off! OH GENTLEMAN!
KARMA HELP ME OUT!!!! He needs something that he deserves for being a horrible man! He's sick and he just doesn't have any conscience. Don't I have a life too? Feelings? I'm a fucking human being for crying out loud!!!! HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yep. I am upset. I was just going to make a new blog but I logged in to a wrong account and discovered this blog.
I'm so sick of being hurt! EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!!!!!
NO ONE HAS A CLUE HOW HORRIBLE YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IF YOU DONT STOP THIS YOU WILL BE A MURDERER FOR MAKING ME KILL MYSELF!
Reading my previous posts have definitely upset me. Why didn't I do something for myself? I had the chance to let go and make myself happy, to escape from this selfish man who at that time had a relationship with a Thai girl online, and had even met up with her while we were back together again. And guess what, he came back with gonorrhea. AWESOME. And even after that? I still forgave him!
I thought that would make him get better. More faithful, I guess! If he felt bad for that he'll probably do his best to be the best boyfriend ever. That's what he said! But no no no no.... OH MY GOD! I can't write right now. I'm too upset. I'm soooo stupid!
What am I doing now? What am I doing with this guy who isn't respecting me anymore?? He hurts me everyday and he says to me that he doesn't give a fuck if it upsets me. Oh, he's on an online dating website by the way, talking to girls and ladyboys, pretending he's single and flirting with them. And I have to choose to live with it or fuck off! OH GENTLEMAN!
KARMA HELP ME OUT!!!! He needs something that he deserves for being a horrible man! He's sick and he just doesn't have any conscience. Don't I have a life too? Feelings? I'm a fucking human being for crying out loud!!!! HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yep. I am upset. I was just going to make a new blog but I logged in to a wrong account and discovered this blog.
I'm so sick of being hurt! EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!!!!!
NO ONE HAS A CLUE HOW HORRIBLE YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IF YOU DONT STOP THIS YOU WILL BE A MURDERER FOR MAKING ME KILL MYSELF!
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